I don’t want my course anymore!!! damn! why does it affect me too much? if i know he doesn’t want me to see hidden parts of a human body specially on men or worst, touch them! but i have no choice!!! I’m taking up BS Nursing and even it’s not compulsory, i have too if ever there is. 

i’m crying right now and i cried the whole afternoon! i have to tell him sooner or in the other way around and he’ll eventually leave ME the time i’ll be too attached to him and fear that i might do something that’s beyond my control . 

i don’t know if i’m overreacting or i’m just afraid of loosing him. he told me “wala, nawad-an raku gana” the moment i told him. i can’t merely describe my feelings at that time.. i understand him but… shets!! >.< 

I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ANYMORE. 

yesterday, he said that he’ll have a jogging at my place and he’ll meet me at the bakeshop before 7am. i guess i got too excited and went early between 5am to 6am. i mean, why?!! i know he’ll leave his house by 5:45 and to be expected he’ll arrive more or less 6:30.. >.< i was born a jerk…. gosh! why oh why! I need timing skills and i have to go back home, mom is looking for me, i can’t wait for him anymore or else!

…By the time i left the bakeshop, he came after and saw my cup of tea on the table.

di ko yun kagustuhan ok!? wala akong magagawa…. kung nasaktan kayo, it’s killing me.